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“We have just been born, but there is no way to distinguish ourselves from each other.”

“Since Mother created us, we humbly request that she give us names.”

A feeling of joy, as if from El-Prigion, was conveyed to us.

Presumably, we were quite closely connected mentally as well.

“Indeed, as a mother, I had forgotten that part. I wonder if the other children will be alright with it?”

Who could object to a mother giving her children names?

It was also in accordance with the morals of her past life that she knew.

Everyone nodded as if they thought so too.

“Child born from my first peak. As the first, I name you Demis, meaning that you shall lead the Elves and create and uphold the rules.”

“Child born from my second peak. As the second, I name you Atira, meaning that you shall lead your younger siblings and make all things abundant.”

“Child born from my third peak. As the third, I name you Saraswati, meaning that you shall wisely treat and benefit all creation.”

“Child born from my fourth peak. As the fourth, I name you Pallas, meaning that you shall bravely protect all.”

“Child born from my fifth peak. As the fifth, I name you Anat, meaning that you shall love all things on earth.”

“Child born from my sixth peak. As the sixth, I name you Elmoni, meaning that you shall fulfill your role as a messenger of harmony, the original purpose of the Elves.”

After the first six were given their names, all conscious gazes turned to me.

“Child born from my seventh peak. I shall name you Araya.”

A thought filled with love pierced my very soul.

However, I couldn’t help but stiffen my face at its content.

My six siblings seemed to have received names that matched their respective roles and meanings.

But in my case, she simply said the name Araya without any other words.

Why?

Perhaps it was nothing, but the experiences of my past life seemed to have left scars even on my soul.

It had made me so twisted that I couldn’t help but doubt even a will filled with love.

“Why?”

The words came out reflexively, without even deep contemplation.

Everyone else had received their names without much question, so everyone except Demis and Saraswati looked at me with surprised eyes at my question.

However, Pragion asked, as if even this aspect of her child was lovely.

“What is it?”

“…My siblings all received their roles and names that matched them. But I only received a name.”

I look at my small body.

Certainly, it was as neat and graceful as my siblings.

If there were no particular problems, the shape of my face would surely resemble theirs as well.

“My body is smaller and weaker than my siblings. I cannot find the sturdily built body and muscles like Demis, Pallas, or Elmoni.”

Resentment builds up in my voice.

“Also… I was born with a disability. Is that why? Is it because I am your failure that you don’t even expect anything from me?”

If I were a sage from my past life, I might say that excessive missions are foolish lives that bind life and do not free the soul.

But didn’t I feel it in my past life?

The family had no expectations for me.

I was destined to die before reaching adulthood due to my severed meridians.

It was a great fortune that I barely made it through my childhood.

I achieved great results in martial arts knowledge through my developed Upper Dantian and transcendent enlightenment, but in the end, I was an outsider who would soon leave their side.

A human who is not wanted anywhere and does not properly belong is lonely.

And in this other life, I am being forced to endure such a curse again.

However, despite such resentment, the atmosphere around me was strange.

The males generally had bewildered expressions, but the females… had somewhat subtle expressions.

And a thought filled with a strange emotion was felt.

But soon, a warm feeling was conveyed.

“The reason I did not assign you a mission is not because you are lacking. Unlike your siblings, your mission was intentionally not decided.”

“Then why is that?”

“This world, which has only just been created, is still chaotic and full of blank spaces. It is right to establish basic pillars and define intentions, but the future world is difficult to predict even with the power of me and my siblings.”

“Because the future world cannot be predicted, there is a need for chaos that possesses the possibility to become anything. Unlike your siblings, your origin has not yet been determined.”

“Therefore, unlike your siblings who are in a completed form, you only possess potential and possibilities, but you can become anything. Your youthful appearance is the manifestation of that possibility.”

“…I understand that I have not been assigned a mission. But… why am I disabled?”

“Pfft!”

The sound of suppressed laughter came from the side.

When I glared at the source of the sound, Anat was curving her eyebrows like crescent moons, smiling with her eyes.

She was smiling brightly, not at all bothered by my angry gaze.

A woman who is supposed to be in charge of love had a truly frivolous attitude.

The martial arts world of the Central Plains in my past life was a harsh world.

Swords have no eyes, so when fighting to the death, there are many who become disabled after being injured in places where they should not be injured.

One of the forbidden words that should not be said to men in the martial arts world, or rather in human history, is to make fun of their lack of hair or to laugh at their castration.

Even if she was born from a divine being, is she still just a woman?

She was rude and foolish.

“Hmm…”

Regarding this, Prigion also looked perplexed.

Of course, does it make sense for such a being to give birth to her child with a disability?

But fortunately, unlike humans, the being in front of me is truly a godlike existence.

An existence that blooms flower buds to create us, and shakes off her leaves to create other Elves in that place.

Also, there is no falsehood in her love for her children, so even if I am not like my siblings, she will surely give me something wonderful.

“My child, Araya.”

A thought that seemed rarely troubled.

Could it be…?

“You seem to think of yourself as disabled, but that is not a correct thought.”

“…What!”

“I do not know why you think so, but at least I strived for perfection when I sculpted your bodies.”

“Then what is the source of my smallness?”

“As I said before, that appearance is a youthful form that holds potential. I made you that way because I don’t know what you will become… but at least the direction you desire is not desired by anyone and is not the right direction.”

“…Are you saying that I should live with a disability?”

“How could I give such a curse to my children with my own hands? I do not know where your misunderstanding originates from, but if you have such a disability, it would be infertility, not a disability.”

A feeling of pity is conveyed.

I was about to open my mouth to ask what the difference was between disability and infertility when

“…”

“……”

“……?”

My thoughts stopped momentarily.

“Uh… uh…”

“Araya. You were born as a girl. That means you are my daughter.”

“I wouldn’t mind if you wanted something big and wonderful like your sisters, but you desire what your brothers have, so as a mother, I am very embarrassed.”

I momentarily look down.

And I bring my hand to the area where my own thing used to be, or rather, slightly below that.

…A fissure was felt.

A form that I had never experienced in my previous life.

And at this moment, if the mind physically existed, one more fissure would have been added.

‘Why… why did it turn out like this.’

I recall Anat’s laughter and my brothers’ bewilderment earlier.

That’s right, it was like a girl asking her parents why she doesn’t have a penis.

It’s something you can figure out with a little thought.

I was reincarnated, and it is true that I was born as at least one type of human, not a beast, but there is no law that says I must be born as a male like in my previous life.

‘But… but…!’

My body that I looked down at was a child’s body and at the same time, it had no breasts.

Based on my past experiences, women’s breasts swelled up, whether large or small, so I naturally thought I was a man…!

My previous life was a disaster caused by the fact that I had never tried to leave offspring due to my weak body, and I was ignorant about sex except for reading about it.

Cold sweat runs down my back.

My body, which had become sensitive due to embarrassment, felt the gazes that I had been ignoring due to anger and resentment.

I slowly turn my head and see the Elves born from the fallen leaves watching our conversation with expressionless faces.

“Araya, you seem to have realized it, has your question been resolved?”

“Yes… yes…”

“Oh dear, you seem to be quite shocked. Anat, can you take care of Araya?”

She asked Anat, perhaps feeling sorry for my pure white skin turning red and trembling with shame.

“Of course, Mother. She’s my sister.”

With a bright smile, she lightly jumped from the flower she was born from and landed on my flower bud.

If I had been in my right mind, I would have been captivated by her fairy-like appearance, but I was not in my right mind due to shame.

“Well. It seems like everything I had to do has been taken care of. Now, from today onwards, I hope that you, as my children, will make this world more beautiful.”

“”As you wish, Mother.””

At Prigion’s thought, all the Elves, including my siblings, knelt down, looking at Pragion.

However, I simply closed my eyes.